🔗 Share this article Excruciating Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Enigmatic Suffering of Cluster Headaches It began on a gloomy weekday morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a teacher, attempting to manage a new class, when a sudden sensation sprang behind my one eye. It was followed by quick jolts, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort subsided and then returned with greater force. Multiple times that day I handed over a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unrelenting. The headaches returned frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an annual pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the morning, early pangs on the train, full-on pain in the classroom by mid-morning. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder. Cluster headaches often begin with intense discomfort around a single eye that persists for three hours. Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically begin with sudden, severe pain focused on a single eye that peaks within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, drooping eyelids or face sweating. There exists the episodic form, which occurs in periodic bouts; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, characterized by the lack of long symptom-free periods. What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or pancreatitis. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm amid bouts; the figure dropped to 4% when they were not in pain. One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Wales, finds this understandable. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After having alcohol at her school leaving party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home. Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to absences during attacks. Her breakthrough identification came in the early 2000s at a national neurology center. Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its effect. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her family during the paralysis caused by the worst episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility. Headaches have been documented across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the subject. They attributed the ailment to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads. Ancient medical texts suggest bizarre treatments for what some observers would describe as a migraine. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious remedies. It was a Dutch doctor who provided the initial comprehensive description of a cluster headache. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”. Cluster headaches were only formally classified by global medical committees in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a issue with a major artery that supplies blood to the head. Leading specialists in treating the disorder explain this. In 1998, researchers published the findings of a research project for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a brain scanner. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered. In spite of such progress, identification remains slow. One man's symptoms started in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician looked up his symptoms. Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment happen because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're exhausted and low, but not in severe pain,” one says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain disorders, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Specific characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be referred to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to emergency rooms or are given unsuitable treatments. A charity trustee, 78, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She thinks dentists still need much more education. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a reassuring volunteer guided them through oxygen treatment and medication until the episode passed. Official guidance on treatment advise that sufferers are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a anti-migraine medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly soothes the bouts of some people. But consultant specialists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer treatment process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout determines the treatment.” Short bouts with occasional episodes are managed with abortive therapy only. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with steroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that reduces nerve activity. The national guidance need updating to reflect a